You are nothing but....

Dialogue from a year ago today. In the middle of Wal-Mart. Yep KLASSY!

Me: "You hurried up on your route thinking you could avoid me huh? You are nothing but a LYING sack of SHIT!"
Him: "I didn't do nothing."
Me: "Oh bullshit. Men don't send men text messages with fucking smiley faces in them. When you get home from work, you're shit will be packed and on the porch. I want you OUT!"

Best words I ever uttered in my entire life.

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