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The truth shall set you free

A friend of mine who still apparently reads my blog commented that he'd figured out, a quiet Barbie girl = a happy Barbie girl. And it's the truth.

I've found a happiness, contentment and peace with my life that I had forgotten was possible. Or didn't know was possible.  Quite frankly, I don't think I have ever been so at peace with life ever.  And it's not about having someone, though I know he plays a part in this, it's about for the first time maybe ever, me truly loving who I am.  Accepting life and ready to face anything thrown my way.  Not allowing myself to dwell on what could happen but to embrace and love the now.  To live life for what is happening today.  And let me tell you, it works.

The last three years have been one hell of a roller coaster ride.  A ride at times, I didn't handle very well.  But I wouldn't go back and change a thing.  It's all led me to today.  To where I am.  To my peace.  To my happiness.  It's made me realize, things aren't, always going to be rosy.  There are going to be twists and turns, but I'm better prepared to handle them. Because at the end of the day all that matters is that I have a roof over my head, food to eat and people who love me unconditionally.  What more could I ask for?


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