Tomorrow would have been my 15th wedding anniversary. The last two years it didn't bother me. This year it does. Why? I don't know. All I know is that I can finally admit that I know deep down we don't belong together, there will always be that part of me that loves him. Feelings I've been afraid to own up to for two years. But I realize it's okay, you don't spend half your life with someone and expect to feel nothing at all. So I send this song out in memory of what once was.
It's been a hot minute huh? 1,312 days to be exact. Yes, I gave it a goog. I've been back several times but words escaped me. Nothing would come out. I was in a bad place for a long time. But after a whole lot of patience, many prayers, and the support of my family and friends, I made it. And it's worked out well for all of us. We moved early this year into a cute little house. Just me and my kids. My little guy, we will call him Felix, he's happier and has been a champ with the change. He gets the best of both worlds. Barbie Jr, she's been a Godsend. I don't know what I would have done without her. There have been differences in ending a relationship vs. divorce (obviously). Ins and outs. But this time around, I can actually say Felix's father and I are doing pretty well at this co-parenting thing. Which is an odd situation for me given what I went through with Ken. But even that part is going well. Barbie Jr. graduated from high school in M
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