Friday, February 18, 2011

Don't be trapped by dogma.....

“Your time is limited, so don’t waste it living someone else’s life. Don’t be trapped by dogma — which is living with the results of other people’s thinking. Don’t let the noise of others’ opinions drown out your own inner voice. And most importantly, have the courage to follow your heart and intuition. They somehow already know what you truly want to become. Everything else is secondary.” - Steve Jobs

No words could be so true. Over the past 4 1/2 months I have realized a few things. One being, I've let too many people be involved in how I live my life, thus causing me to live someone else's life. Not a life that has been my own. And it's all coming back to bite me. I'm now a 35 year old, single mom, who can't sneeze without someone giving me an opinion. Or giving me shit about how I sneezed. It's frustrating but I only have myself to blame.

Wednesday, February 16, 2011

Ten Pet Peeves of a Barbie Girl..

Random pet peeves!
  1. Jerks who have to be first and pull out in front of you even though there isn't a car behind you
  2. Fleas, I don't really know if you could call them a pet peeve but they annoy the hell out of me.
  3. Selfishness. It isn't always about you. I'm just saying!
  4. If a woman cooks dinner for you, for God's sake, thank her! Offer to take a freaking plate to the kitchen.
  5. Needless, self-created drama
  6. Justin Bieber
  7. Dating again. I haven't dated in 17 years. It sucks.
  8. Big words for simple things. It's art class damnit, not "enrichment"
  9. Mean people. They just suck
  10. When you've had a conversation at least ten times yet the person acts like it's the first time they ever heard of such a thing

Monday, February 14, 2011

Starting over......

I'm the same ol' Barbie Girl. I've got the same attitude, the same sense of humor, the same family, but my past is history. I'm starting new. Time to quit dwelling on what could have been, what wasn't, all that went wrong in my life and dwell on being fabulous. I would sit and read back through my old posts and while they make me who I am today, they also make me incredibly sad. Of course I saved a copy, but they can no longer be found on my blog.

I want to focus on being a wonderful mom and a good person. I want Barbie, Jr. to see a mom that is happy, not sad and depressed.

2011 already has been a challenge. Barbie Jr, spent a week in the hospital, my dad spent almost 6 weeks in the hospital, and at times we weren't sure he'd make it out. I have a renewed thankfulness for many things, one being my family.

Over the past few months, I've learned a lot about myself and a lot about people. I'm tired of settling. I want to be appreciated. And I've found when times are rough, some people show their true selves. It's time to start living by this quote:

"I'm selfish, impatient and a little insecure. I make mistakes, I am out of control and at times hard to handle. But if you can't handle me at my worst, then you sure as hell don't deserve me at my best."
—Marilyn Monroe