Brace yourselves, I've had an epiphany. Guys, I AM HAPPY! I don't really know what exactly made me realize this but I did. Maybe it's because Barbie Jr. is with me for the summer. Maybe because I'm looking forward to summer fun with Jr, my friends and their kids. Maybe because I realized that I have enough guy friends to hang out with to remind me that I'm glad I'm single.
Does it matter? No. All that does matter is that I have once again found my happy.
Tomorrow would have been my 15th wedding anniversary. The last two years it didn't bother me. This year it does. Why? I don't know. All I know is that I can finally admit that I know deep down we don't belong together, there will always be that part of me that loves him. Feelings I've been afraid to own up to for two years. But I realize it's okay, you don't spend half your life with someone and expect to feel nothing at all. So I send this song out in memory of what once was.
I am crazy. I am crafty. I love my family and I love my friends. I hate to clean. I hate to cook. I get way too caught up in TV. I have quite an imagination. I daydream a lot. I like to pretend I can sing well. But I can't. I often feel like my life is a Lifetime movie. I have a daughter and a son who are the center of my universe. I have a small zoo.
At the end of the day I am happy, crazy, kooky, goofy and humble. I am thankful for the experiences I have had, good and bad. They have shaped me into who I am today.