I'll be the first to admit, I'm one tough cookie. I've learned that in the past year. I can ramble about nonsene, post ridiculous status updates on Facebook, joke and laugh, but when placed in a one on one siuation, I turn to stone. But here's a secret, it may be frustrating for you, but it's damn frustrating for me too! I don't want to seem cold hearted and stoic. I want to be able to share my feelings. And maybe someday I will be able to.
I spent years having my feelings used against me. Being told my feelings didn't matter. Many, many, years. It's not something you can just turn on and turn off, I think it has to be relearned. I'm afraid of my feelings, I am afraid of hurting others, I am afraid that if I speak my mind then I will lose. Silly I know, but it's left over insecurities.
So yeah, maybe I am hard to read. Maybe I am afraid to share my feelings. Maybe I do keep everyone at arm's length, but I have my reasons and people need to respect that!
New Stylecraft Special Colours
1 week ago